Loneliness

Loneliness is an interesting thing.  It's weird how at times, you can be all by yourself and not feel lonely at all.  Then other times, you can be surrounded by tons of people but still feel like you're the only one on the planet.  What prompts the feeling of being lonely?  I guess loneliness comes from not having someone you feel you can talk to and share things with.  Not knowing that there's someone or a few someones who care about you.  I'm not just talking about a "significant other", I mean anyone, family or friend.  

I struggle with the feeling of being lonely a lot.  (Now let me say right here, that I am not writing this to get sympathy or for people to say "poor Alena" or anything like that.  This blog is about my ramblings, opinions, and thoughts and that is all that this is. It's ROT)  Now the dictionary definition of the word "lonely" is "Sad because one has no friends or company".  I guess that is an accurate definition except that I do have friends and I do have people who I know care about me.  So, based on that, I shouldn't feel lonely. Right?  I don't know. 

I guess it just goes back to what my parents are always saying.  "Feelings are just that, feelings.  You can't base anything on your feelings."  So while I may feel all alone, the reality is that I have friends and family (granted, they are all over the world and far away) who do care about me.  And ultimately, there is no reason why I should ever feel lonely because I have a loving Saviour who is always with me whether I can "feel" Him or not.

"And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you..." 2 Corinthians 12:9a

Trusting God

Well, I found out today that I did not get the job with CollegePlus!.  Everyone is saying how sorry they are, and while I am kind of disappointed, I really have complete peace about not getting the job.


Since I was 14 I've been trying to plan out my life and figure out exactly what I would be doing.  I've done that all the way up until a few weeks ago.  Then something major happened and Matthew 6:25 took on a whole new meaning. "Do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on..."and it could go on to say nor about what job you will have, nor about where you will live... I finally realize that when it says not to worry about all of that stuff, it really means that you don't have to worry.  Simple right? lol.  I have come to not only realize that I don't have to worry or be anxious about my life, but I have come to be able to really implement this verse into my day to day.  I have learned (and am still learning) to simply rest in the fact that God DOES have a plan for my life and that He WILL lead me to it.  So while I continue to look and feel around for possible ways I could go, I'm no longer anxious about what the end result will be.  I am perfectly content in being right where He has me and I'm at peace knowing that God's going to close some doors and open some windows and prod me along in exactly the direction I need to go.


"Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him." 1 Corinthians 2:9

Marvelous Monday

It is finally Monday.  A few of you have asked what exactly is happening on Monday that would warrant such excitement from me.  Well, today two big things happened.  And I suppose now I should tell you about them.

The first big thing that has me jumping up and down (not literally, mind you. I am much too mature for that. Stop snickering.) is the fact that last week I was looking on the internet for riding stables.  A bit of background is required here... I have always loved horses and have had dreams of working with them, but I've never had the opportunity.  Last year I discovered (through lots of online searching) that there is such a thing as therapeutic horseback riding.  They use horses to help people with physical, mental and emotional disabilities.  From the second I learned about it I've been interested in therapeutic riding.  What a great way to combine ones love of horses with ones love of people.  And what a fantastic way to help people with disabilities.  Needless to say I was instantly searching for a way to somehow get into that field.  I discovered there are therapeutic riding stables all over the country that are accredited by the NARHA (North American Riding for the Handicapped Association).  Most, if not all, of these stables are non-profit organizations and rely largely on the work of volunteers. 

So, last week, I searched for therapeutic riding stables in the area and found one about 40 minutes away from me.  I immediately emailed them about their volunteer opportunities.  So today, this fateful Monday, June 13th, 2011, I drove up to Eden Farms in Marietta, SC and went through a volunteer orientation.  I will begin volunteering with them this Wednesday.

My hope is that this could possibly turn into something much more than simply volunteering and perhaps I can become certified as a therapeutic riding instructor.  But I don't want to get ahead of myself here.  So for the moment I am just happy for the opportunity to work with the animals I love and perhaps help make a difference in the life of someone less fortunate than I.


That was the first big thing that Monday brought along.  The second big thing was a follow-up interview with CollegePlus! for the part-time position of Accountability Mentor.  It went super well (I thought) and I will know if I've been hired come this Friday.

And now you all know why Monday has been such a big day for me.


"Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him." 1 Corinthians 2:9 

Hello There

Hi,

So...I've never had any intention of writing a blog.  I'm not one to say profound, amazing things and I'm not a particularly good writer.  When my mom suggested that I start a blog my first response was "Who'd want to read what I write? I have nothing to say."  But while I still don't have an answer to the first question, I have begun to realize that, though nobody may want to read what I write, I do, in fact, have things to say.  So much has happened to me over this past year and I've learned so much that I really must share.  And I can feel that so much more is going to happen to me in the coming months.

As the title of my blog states, it will be filled with ROT.  Ramblings, Opinions, and Thoughts of my life.

I invite you to come along with me as God reveals His will for my life and I step (often timidly) into the next chapter of my book.

Alena 

"Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor have entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him." 1 Corinthians 2:9